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Hei (Li Shenshung) ([personal profile] mortemscintilla) wrote2012-07-13 12:13 am
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moonlitrequiem: (A slump)

message - left later tonight after she revives

[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-20 06:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[She's never done this before her entire time here, or before, unless it was an update Hei requested, or information obviously vital to him. Because of this, she doesn't even know what to say, but she wants to talk to him. For that, Hei gets a very small, soft voice left in his message box, saying only one word:]

Hei.
moonlitrequiem: (Actually speaking)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-21 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
[She experiences her own flare of warmth when Hei responds to her. Yin is sure it wasn't there before, but it is now, and she won't turn it aside for anything. Besides, she isn't aware the monster from last night was Hei. She's still not sure if he was aware or not of her passing. She does know he sometimes spies on her, as she does him, but she's completely aware of how often and when and where.]

[His request is formal, though his tone isn't, and Yin follows suit in her response.]


Fully functional. [The only way she truly knows how to assess her level of okay, whether she is able to perform her duties or not. But after being dead for another twenty-four hours, she has to know the same.]

Yours?
moonlitrequiem: (Frail and thin)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-21 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
[Cursed last night. She's not programmed to think, to make connections, to make recognitions. But she wasn't programmed to ask in the first place. Still, she doesn't place it. Her own life is almost just as empty. Her thoughts empty now. She's only focusing on Hei's words.]

No. [There weren't any similarities for her to work off of. No words, no voice, eyes so dissimilar. Maybe if she noticed the void, the monster, in Hei to begin with, she could have noticed.]
moonlitrequiem: (Worried (she can be))

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-21 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
[She won't waste her time telling him it's not his fault. As a Doll, she wouldn't anyway. As Yin she already knows he's logically aware of how the curses work, even if she was able to sense a guilt from his actions last time, and how he pulled away. Would this time be the same? Worse? And here she had only been worried he would know she had been killed.]

It was a curse. [It's a matter of fact to her, and nothing more. It changed nothing, just like last time. In fact, this time it changes and matters even less. She was already City!dead.]
moonlitrequiem: (Just here maybe thinking)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-21 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
[Before coming to the City and dealing with people that weren't aware of her status as a Doll, Hei was the only person who ever asked her what she wanted. She showed her appreciation but always giving the questions answers, as she did now. She didn't even take a moment to think it over. No awkward pause.]

No. It would not be uncomfortable.

[Her ideas, her feelings, everything walled off and muted, Yin slowly, every day, brick by brick, or grain by grain, she takes that wall down and reaches her hands towards what was once hers. Every day she's that much closer. Close enough she adds:]

Please come.
moonlitrequiem: (Frail and thin)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-21 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
[And she feels like Hei owes her nothing, and she owes him everything. She doesn't need an apology. All she wants is exactly what he's offering.]

[Her own reply is short, but she gives one before ending the conversation. And she does end it this time.]
I will.
moonlitrequiem: (Hugging Hei)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-22 01:07 am (UTC)(link)
[She's so accustomed to his timing, Yin was already by the door, even without spying on him. She says nothing, just opens the door. But rather than offer him the chance to enter, she hugs him. For a Doll, it's downright impulsive behavior.]
moonlitrequiem: (Frail and thin)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-26 03:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[She doesn't understand why she's halted, but like always allows it while Hei inspects her. Once he's completed looking her over, though, Yin finds herself enveloped by his scent, the feel of his jacket against her skin, his arms tight around her. She settles against his chest, held so tightly there's little else she can do anyway. She feels for a heartbeat, her hands against Hei's chest. Signs and reminders he's still alive, that whatever else happened that night, he walked away unscathed in the end.]

[She won't be ending this any time soon either.]
moonlitrequiem: (Down)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-28 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
[When she's finally pulled away from him, Yin stands there, still. She would normally be silent, but instead, she tugs at Hei's arm.]

What about you? [Because, twice already, the one she would have defended against would be Hei. What would have happened to him?]
moonlitrequiem: (Worried (she can be))

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-10-28 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
[Yin's only goal was to be obedient, in the beginning. Then she gave herself a new goal - feel again. Now that she has accomplished that goal, simply being obedient unquestioningly is no longer an option. She takes a step back and shakes her head. She will defend herself against others at Hei's request, if it saves him some grief. But against him she will not. Yin shakes her head.]
moonlitrequiem: (Slightly confused)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-11-11 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
[She shakes her head to his words. It's not the same as disliking it.]

I'm already City Dead. It makes more sense to put your life before mine. Otherwise, we'll both end up City Dead, and both trapped here. At least you can return home.

[Yin shows the big picture she's being staring at for a while now, so even if she could put aside her dislike for the idea, there's a logic she can't turn away from. For all of her emotions, there's a part of her that is still thinking of the best for the team. No. Just the best for Hei; it still seems illogical for both of them to end up dead.]
moonlitrequiem: (A bit put out)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-11-12 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
But why is it okay for us to both be City Dead? [She didn't like it, she didn't get how it would be okay, and she certainly couldn't understand her life had equal value. She didn't think of their lives in weight. Not until now.]
moonlitrequiem: (About to cry)

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[personal profile] moonlitrequiem 2013-11-12 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
[And it's the very words he says that make him Hei to her. It's those words that solidify her earlier determination and bring it back full-force. There's no longer any point in arguing it, debating it, or trying ti talk it out. There is no other option, no other possibility. When she looks up at him, her eyes are glassy, almost wet.]

I won't. [Anything else he could say would just make it worse. He might be cursed when he killed her, but he was asking her to harm him while she was in her right mind. She would have to watch, horrified, pained while she hurt him just to protect herself. There was no way to push her further, logic or not. It didn't matter anymore.]

[Hei did.]

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